I have ruined paradise ….
What are you up to ?
This message is related to all "ME" who read this.
It is a shameful thing that I can spend number of hours on phone in asking "if she loves me or not" and waiting for "I love you " from other side and that is just for a KICK ! ? While who gives me the feeling to be loved and love others - we have not even a single second to remember him [ exceptions are - when I am in problems or need something like a car/want to miss some test/pass some exam without studies etc., of course I remember him only then ]. I would prefer to watch movies for whole weekends and taking it an exception because weekends are just for ME and I cant think of any other thing at that moment. You know there is nothing which can give PEACE other than a movie.
How blissful are the saints who were/are and will be there always on planet to teach me this simple language of love and devotion in our own regional language. It is me - a fool - who could not get it. HE has made no mistake in sending all of his LOVE MESSAGES to me by all possible means. Its like birth of a saint who has come to show me that PATH and to teach me WISDOM and true meaning of life. It was all myself how could not understand it, while I earned MONEY, KNOWLEDGE, SOCIAL FAME etc etc. a lot .. and now you know HOW WISE I AM. Basically these WANTS are must and CONTENTMENT cannot come without having these. What??? you do not think so, well then mind your own business dude ! I always tried my level best to let HIM understand that all I want to live is a lavish life, with all sort of comforts around me. I needed POWER, MONEY, GOOD and HEALTHY FAMILY, CARS, HIGH SALARY JOB and SOCIAL FAME. Why was HE still trying to make me poor, gave problems in my family, got a bad name in society and had to switch jobs several times? I needed an answer. Well it is good that I got some psychic powers from birth so most of the things I get at my own.
I got GOOD friends to lean on, share booz and weekend stuff. They accept always that I will pay their BILLS and they respect my such decisions. I look after their homes and cars and dogs when they are away on holidays. I stand in queues for them when they pick up good girls to watch movies with. WOW and HE said that leave these friends? Well where would have I found such FREEDOM of thought and people who accept my SERVICES? AM I GOING NUTS ? c'mon Mr GOD, this is the right way to live, may be there are people you are sending to me every now and then to help me, but you see I don't have any trouble in my life so far. I came out of any trouble I started facing. And you know what, wines are made up of grains, and you say this is poison… ahan? Well it’s a sweet poison then ….umm I like it. So you just mind your own business and I don’t need your help and still I am thankful to all of your concerns. Wine and chicken bones… yummiest things on the earth, if nobody has tasted them, then what they hell are they doing here, send them to moon J !
Today my so called psychic powers are lost completely, I mean I don’t know what happened to them, I tried drinking heavily and then left it, similar thing I tried with eating habits and turned into vegetarian. My friends do not accompany me in meditation class as they get stinking feel over there and this is now what they are supposed to do at this time, they want to leave it for old age. I am ashamed, got wisdom but lost everything. I stand in team of wisest people who might not have earned degrees from Harvard but they know how to LIVE and how to DIE. I stand like a fool in this group, but still they accept me with smiles and they say don’t go into depression for old mistakes, prepare your future and change your present. Practice today. I accept every word of them, although it sounded foolish and funny to me when I joined this gang and was able to do mockery behind their back. I knew the oldest one who gives long speeches on good things and some practical JOKES he shares, actually he has intention to give us wisdom wrapped with a smile and joy. From first day he was kind to me, always asked me to sit in front row and has taken good care of me while I practice meditation. He answers most of my stupid questions with same smile and joy. I knew this is same guy that I wanted to by-pass or ignore him on road. And today I feel pride to know such a person who with all gratitude and kindness, always lent a HELLO to me [ while I was showing my back to him on road ]
I am ashamed on my deeds, I am ashamed on my each bit of second, which all wasted in worldly affairs. I don’t know if I would get salvation or not, but one thing is for sure, HE is kind and humble father and who takes utmost care of HIS children who reach back to home but with some DELAY. Thanks to all SIGNBOARDS and MARK MAKERS, who had put me back on to this lane which takes me back to my home where my FATHER is waiting.
I got a tissue to wipe off my tears, do you need any??? Let me know.
For my beloved Master,
Accepting that I did bad deeds
Practicing what you are teaching me !
- N
What are you up to ?
This message is related to all "ME" who read this.
It is a shameful thing that I can spend number of hours on phone in asking "if she loves me or not" and waiting for "I love you " from other side and that is just for a KICK ! ? While who gives me the feeling to be loved and love others - we have not even a single second to remember him [ exceptions are - when I am in problems or need something like a car/want to miss some test/pass some exam without studies etc., of course I remember him only then ]. I would prefer to watch movies for whole weekends and taking it an exception because weekends are just for ME and I cant think of any other thing at that moment. You know there is nothing which can give PEACE other than a movie.
How blissful are the saints who were/are and will be there always on planet to teach me this simple language of love and devotion in our own regional language. It is me - a fool - who could not get it. HE has made no mistake in sending all of his LOVE MESSAGES to me by all possible means. Its like birth of a saint who has come to show me that PATH and to teach me WISDOM and true meaning of life. It was all myself how could not understand it, while I earned MONEY, KNOWLEDGE, SOCIAL FAME etc etc. a lot .. and now you know HOW WISE I AM. Basically these WANTS are must and CONTENTMENT cannot come without having these. What??? you do not think so, well then mind your own business dude ! I always tried my level best to let HIM understand that all I want to live is a lavish life, with all sort of comforts around me. I needed POWER, MONEY, GOOD and HEALTHY FAMILY, CARS, HIGH SALARY JOB and SOCIAL FAME. Why was HE still trying to make me poor, gave problems in my family, got a bad name in society and had to switch jobs several times? I needed an answer. Well it is good that I got some psychic powers from birth so most of the things I get at my own.
I got GOOD friends to lean on, share booz and weekend stuff. They accept always that I will pay their BILLS and they respect my such decisions. I look after their homes and cars and dogs when they are away on holidays. I stand in queues for them when they pick up good girls to watch movies with. WOW and HE said that leave these friends? Well where would have I found such FREEDOM of thought and people who accept my SERVICES? AM I GOING NUTS ? c'mon Mr GOD, this is the right way to live, may be there are people you are sending to me every now and then to help me, but you see I don't have any trouble in my life so far. I came out of any trouble I started facing. And you know what, wines are made up of grains, and you say this is poison… ahan? Well it’s a sweet poison then ….umm I like it. So you just mind your own business and I don’t need your help and still I am thankful to all of your concerns. Wine and chicken bones… yummiest things on the earth, if nobody has tasted them, then what they hell are they doing here, send them to moon J !
Today my so called psychic powers are lost completely, I mean I don’t know what happened to them, I tried drinking heavily and then left it, similar thing I tried with eating habits and turned into vegetarian. My friends do not accompany me in meditation class as they get stinking feel over there and this is now what they are supposed to do at this time, they want to leave it for old age. I am ashamed, got wisdom but lost everything. I stand in team of wisest people who might not have earned degrees from Harvard but they know how to LIVE and how to DIE. I stand like a fool in this group, but still they accept me with smiles and they say don’t go into depression for old mistakes, prepare your future and change your present. Practice today. I accept every word of them, although it sounded foolish and funny to me when I joined this gang and was able to do mockery behind their back. I knew the oldest one who gives long speeches on good things and some practical JOKES he shares, actually he has intention to give us wisdom wrapped with a smile and joy. From first day he was kind to me, always asked me to sit in front row and has taken good care of me while I practice meditation. He answers most of my stupid questions with same smile and joy. I knew this is same guy that I wanted to by-pass or ignore him on road. And today I feel pride to know such a person who with all gratitude and kindness, always lent a HELLO to me [ while I was showing my back to him on road ]
I am ashamed on my deeds, I am ashamed on my each bit of second, which all wasted in worldly affairs. I don’t know if I would get salvation or not, but one thing is for sure, HE is kind and humble father and who takes utmost care of HIS children who reach back to home but with some DELAY. Thanks to all SIGNBOARDS and MARK MAKERS, who had put me back on to this lane which takes me back to my home where my FATHER is waiting.
I got a tissue to wipe off my tears, do you need any??? Let me know.
For my beloved Master,
Accepting that I did bad deeds
Practicing what you are teaching me !
- N
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